I love perfect temperatures. I have a deep appreciation for springly weather. It makes me so happy to walk outside and feel a nice breeze that isn't too hot or too cold.
I also appreciate good writing. I think it's more accurate to say I appreciate honest writing. Nah, actually, it's more like I writing that people enjoyed writing. That's why I like it when English majors blog just as much as when normal people blog. But some people are super self-conscious about blogging. Or maybe it's more like super self-absorbed. I dunno! I suck at describing things. Sometimes people have lots going on in their heads and they need to just get it down, and that's good to read too. I don't like it when people write more for people to read than just for the fun of it. I think that's it. I appreciate people doing things just for the fun of doing things.
I played video games by myself twice over the past few days, and it wasn't very fulfilling. Left me feeling hollow. Playing video games with other people is fun, unless everybody's just staring at the screen with open mouths.
I don't get absorbed into life as much as other people, I think. I'd love to love everything more, but I don't. I'm not very curious, or very creative. You know what I'd love? If I was really good at music. I think I'd be a lot happier. I like music.
Video games are very absorbing though. Maybe that's why I get sucked into them more than I get sucked into life.
Today I was ridiculously frustrated for a little while. I hated on myself for not loving my family very much. I didn't want to read. I played video games for a while, but I couldn't keep doing that. I didn't want to pray. It was that sort of frustration I'd get from really wanting to something, but not knowing what that something was. In the end, I decided to sit and wait for God to tell me what to do. I think the sitting and waiting was what I needed to do.
Sometimes the reason I don't want to do things is because I'm afraid it won't be good. Maybe that's why I like video games and programming. Computers are very predictable. But anyways, I let the fear of the thing not being good consume me sometimes. I think that was part of the story.
i think that even if you were really good at music you'd still wish you'd be better at something else. it's why all the musicians in the world are on crack. haha. jk. but if you dont want to look at it from that angle, you are creative and content. No use trying to be someone you aren't when you're fine the way God wanted you to be. Any more, or any less simply wouldn't be oliver yeung.
ReplyDeletewe all want what we don't know to turn out good. to happen perfectly. yet there would be no fun in perfection. no challenge. afterall, you did say that life without trials would be quite dull. don't give up on what you want to accomplish. even if you can't master it, learning it is half the fun and half the satisfaction.
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